Not an Option

Suicide is on my mind

I don’t feel alive

Walk around everyday with a smile on my face

But inside I’m dying

I’m trying to reach out but no one understands

Trying to deal with all this bullshit but no one lends a hand

I feel so alone trapped inside of myself

My friends try and tell me that it’s okay

But inside my mind, it’s a hurricane

I have bad thoughts and my minds like the devil

Always bringing me down

I just wanna surrender

Will it ever be okay

Will I ever be okay

Something keeps telling me to keep trying

I shouldn’t live my life like I’m dying

The tunnel is dark and the light shines dim

And yeah this life may seem grim

But I’m a survivor

Yeah, I’m a survivor

I locked myself in my room again

Parents banging on the door, but my mind's not even home

I don’t know why I feel so alone

Scars on my body, this is not who I am

Don’t even reach out cause I don’t give a damn

Nobody ever tries to stop me

I swear I’m lost within me

Will somebody please reach out and understand

Something keeps telling me to keep trying

I shouldn’t live my life like I’m dying

The tunnel is dark and the light shines dim

And yeah this life may seem grim

But I’m a survivor

Yeah, I’m a survivor

Alright, this is it

This is the last moment of my life

Doors locked and I’m in my best suit

Suicide note is on my bed

I sit and wonder

I think about all the people that love me

What would my friends feel

How would my family react

I stick the gun to my head and scream fuck that

My fingers on the trigger and I’m ready to shoot

Not even thinking about what this is gonna do

Something within me burns inside, tears fill my eyes

I’m not ready to die

I put the gun down and rip the suicide note

I’m not ready to quit

Something keeps telling me to keep trying

I shouldn’t live my life like I’m dying

The tunnel is dark and the light shines dim

And yeah, this life may seem grim

But I’m a survivor

Yeah, I’m a survivor

Yeah, I’m a survivor

I’m a survivor

When life knocks me down, I get back up

The sun is shining, birds are chirping

I’m not giving up and you shouldn’t either

Cause life’s beautiful

Live it