Not a Good Sister

I sometimes wonder if you hate me,

Of if you're just jealous.

I seem to never be able to do anything right,

And you always get pissed.

I can't seem to understand why,

Why you're always getting pissed at me.

I feel like crying whenever you say I'm rude,

Rude to my niece when I'm not.

Not unless it is needed.

I'm sorry I'm not like you.

I'm sorry that I like being alone.

I'm sorry that you didn't finish school.

I'm sorry that I'm actually going somewhere with my life,

And not just sitting around at home with nothing to do but take care of kids.

I feel like crying whenever you get pissed at me.

It makes me feel like I'm nothing,

I don't understand.

What do I do that makes you pissed?

Mom says you're just in a bad mood,

But it never seems to be that.

You'll be all smiley and giggly and then change.

What is it I do?

I feel like crying.

I feel like breaking down.

Am I not a good sister?