Nonsensical Lies

How am I going to do this?

How do I survive?

How do I carry on day to day,

Knowing you're not alive?

Someone tell me how to handle this.

Someone tell me how to heal.

Someone tell me how to turn this off,

So I can no longer feel.

I'm crying, I'm begging, I'm screaming for help,

But nothing will soothe the pain.

I keep telling myself over and over,

I'll never see you again.

I'm trying to get it into my head.

I'm trying to glue my heart.

But the harder I try,

It's hammered home more,

We will always be apart.

Did you know how much I loved you?

Did you know how much I cared?

Part of me wishes I never did,

Because this is too much to bear.

People keep saying; "Remember the good times, remember the times you laughed"

But the memories are tainted,

By your tragic fate,

And the fact that we are now halved.

I will never be able to say goodbye.

I will never bid you farewell.

Because the longer I hold on to this denial,

I'll believe the lies that I tell.

I'd rather live out the rest of my life,

Believing nonsensical lies,

Than accept the fact that you've been taken,

And our fairytale friendship has died.