Nobi's Diary

"Dear Diary,

These might be the last words, my last script

For I am too deep in an awkward pit

A pit that keeps sinking, quick sand

Wishing for a magic touch, no wand

Being a girl is hard, tough and full of "if nots"

Remember Jamie, the tall cute and handsome

Falling in love and not being able to say

Pushing him away and told him not to stay

I loved him but I was too scared

Just because I paid more attention to my friends

My heart wanted him, but I neglected his advances

Cause I thought all guys were park of unworthy liars

Too scared to have my heart broken

Ran in opposite direction

But he never stopped coming back

Throw him a lemon to hurt him

But instead he would turn it into a fruit fight

Told him he was ugly and he would say he is an alien

But still it wasn't enough, never was

My over secure and hard shell nature at its worst.

I ignored him, hurt him, stomped on his heart

He was always there, but then I hurt him

He cried and turned his back

All the moments and care was all gone

Melancholy, the human form, had come

I have never felt so alone, so empty

Then I realised, I did love him so much

Such a fool I was, my biggest mistake

Now I was full of heart ache.

Saw him, kissing another girl and my heart was bleeding

Made me hate every aspect of the decision

I never gave him the priority he deserved

Another girl did, she pulled what I had pushed.

I can't take it anymore, diary

Suicidal thoughts are just creeping in slowly

I see ropes every time I look at the ceiling

But I am stronger than this

I am a woman, stronger than I was

I made a bad decision which I hope to overcome

Burning the old diaries and rewriting a new one

For in this, I would give love my all.