No Meaning

Recently I figured out that life really has no meaning

Sad but true

Life is like a jumble of love.madness.tragedy. with a little hint of dreaming

Dreaming. people dreaming. dreaming for unrealistic things

But If set to it. The mind can achieve to do impossible things.

For a moment you gave me dreams and my life a meaning

Your laughter would fill the classroom with joy, or at least my heart.

Even if it sounded a bit like a hyena mixed with whale

But I didn't care I still loved it, along with every moment we spent.

Though you made me happy I was still lost in the darkness of my own mind

The fears. The doubts. But there was a light, the key out. It was you

I wasn't lost when I was with you.

I had found the drug to my anxiety, but at the same time I was addicted to another.

I had two in which I couldn't choose from.

Now sober I realize it wasn't a drug,

It was you. There was only you.

I have abused it and there is no more, every chance I had to make more. I let it go by.

I'm slowly going back to my old ways, possibly in a better place now that I've met you but it won't be the same,

because I don't have you anymore, you got tired of waiting.

I hope that you felt some way about me too, I might never know. That you still think about me now and then. That maybe we will meet again at a better time. That this time I will be the one. To give your life a meaning.