No Love

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home... I thought about today and what would of happened if I died on my drive here. Would you be happy considering how our day went? Relieved that you didn’t have to deal with the stress of our relationship anymore? Glad that karma gave me what I deserved? Would you have felt anything at all?

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home... I got insulted repeatedly by managers at work who thought it was funny. I got insulted repeatedly by my boyfriend who was too angry to realize that he was only hurting us both. I got put down by the world all day.

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home.... I cried at work from the stress of my job and my relationship. I cried on my way home from realizing what my life had come to. I cried myself to sleep because my life might never turn up from the dark hole I’m in.

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home... I did this to myself. I created a reason for you to beat me down and leave me lying in the dirt. I don’t think I’m capable of being happy.

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home... but I guess I would have to love myself before any one truly loves me first, but that will never happen.

Tonight I didn’t get an I love you on my way home.