Wake up every morning with this weight on my shoulders,
Bed sheets soaked and sweaty from that night-by-night torture,
Devil gave my soul back for a brief, fleeting moment,
Memoirs of my past got me filled with emotion,
First thing that I do is roll an L and start smokin’,
Stand up, lace the kicks, and put them wheels into motion,
Stress then takes control, drive the whip like it’s stolen,
Gotta hustle harder cause my bank funds are frozen,
Future non-existent so my time here is golden,
Present moments suffer like the whales in the ocean,
Keep a watchful eye because I’m cursed with an omen,
Cover up the truth cause I can’t show that I’m broken,
Watch me keep my head up and live up to the slogan,
Hard up on the surface, living life like a Roman,
Break my code of ethics just so I can keep rollin’,
Crazy, vicious thoughts, I can't help but keep token.
Look up to the sky and ask the lord for devotion,
Pray for transformation, help me find a new notion,
Try to speak my mind, just to prove I’m not jokin’,
Gotta let my voice out but my pride has me chokin’,
Nothing left to do but fight it out in the open,
Decoy my own logic, I was schooled as a Trojan,
Missed my opportunity, these doors keep on closin’,
Trials and tribulations. Man, I must have been chosen,
Beatings everyday but you can’t tell that I’m swollen,
This battle got me weary so come help with my copin’,
Please someone hold me down because I feel like I’m floatin’,
Uneasy by my words, it's why they say I’m outspoken,
Don’t judge me by my actions or this life in this moment,
Cause at the end of the day, the devil takes my own soul in,
So I holla at my homeboy just to see if he’s holdin’,
Finally lay my head down, sleep with one eye open.
About the Creator
Nicholas Schmidt
Just trying to let my voice out, any way I can.
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