Never Lose Hope

Now that I know,

Can you forgive me for my angry cries?

I know I'm bad,

and that's the reason, I apologise!

I close my eyes

and take the time to sit and pray

To let u know that I appreciate another day

Not black or white, today might be a shade of grey

Not wrong or right, but somewhere in the middle

Not feeling like, I'm headed towards a better day

Not living right, there's gotta be a better way

Gotta switch it up, if I plan on getting it right

Gotta flip my luck, so I can make my future bright

But I understand, that there's only one way to the light,

Better get back up, if I plan on winning the fight

But understand me, I struggle and keep on falling

I slip and I get back up to I feel like I missed my calling

and my selection

I feel like I lost my sense of direction, you got my back but I know I'm not worthy of your protection

might I mention...

You showed me my freedom through apprehension

You tried to call me before, now wish that I paid attention,

My correction is something I'm seeking through my collection of words that I'm writing down while I'm searching for some connection

My life?

It's crazy and complicated,

the thing that's holding me back is the reason I haven't made it

You see,

I told you is difficult

The situation I'm in

Decisions are critical

But I know you, so I always call you up

for advice like I couldn't get

Sharp like a knife but I never got my cut and now I'm praying on my knees until I can get back up