My Trust

What’s to feel,

Think,

Believe—

Trust,

Ignore,

Forgive,

Forget?

My heart is not a toy,

Not a weapon

Nothing to be played with

Nothing to ignore

NOTHING for you to destroy

To treat me like I’m regular

When I’m far from

Far from average,

Far from normal

Far from ORDINARY–

Instead you should look at me as

A GIFT,

A prize,

Special.

Non deserving of your BULLSHIT

Non deserving of your lies

Of your DICKHEADNESS

That’s what you are ... a DICK !

And I gave you what I gave NOBODY

My trust—

I gave you my trust

My belief that I would not be hurt by you

My hope that I would really be with you

My faith that, like me,

the only one I seen was you

I wished that you would’ve stayed focused

On me