My Solitude World

I use to sit and wonder what my life will bring

Will it bring joys?

Will it bring love?

Will I one day be happy?

Or will it bring sorrow, pain and suffering?

Will I be alone on my journey?

Or will I be surrounded by many?

These questions have circled my mind as I sat alone in the dark

I began contemplating on the decisions I have made

Wondering if I made the right or wrong choices

I guess it does not matter now

Those moments have gone

The past can not be undone

The present is haunting

My future is uncertain

I have no clue as to what will come

No clue as to how I will handle things, if I can at all

That once made me anxious

My anxiety kicked in and I could not rest

So, it was many sleepless nights

I was left alone with my thoughts

Though my thoughts were not pleasant, they brought me comfort

For my inner voice is the only one I have heard in a long while

No one talks to me

At times it seems they don't even know I exist

I have learned to make peace with my solitude world

I have become my best and only friend

It may seem sad but, I would rather it be this way

People cause too much pain

They lie, manipulate and deceive

I would rather not be a victim of such acts

At least I know that I will never hurt myself

I know I can trust me

So alone I will remain

Shutting the world out

I will remain in my solitude

At peace with my choice

It seems to be the only way

The only way I can be certain I will not be hurt

That I will not fall into the corruption of society and its lies

I am honest with me

I am loyal to myself

I am all I will ever need

I have convinced myself of that much

So let the world unravel around me, outside of these walls

I shall pay no mind

That is not the world for me

My world is right here, in this dark empty place

I shall remain here in my world

Until my dying day

Do not fret, I am truly just fine

No need for your worries

No need for your concerns

Live as you please

Ignore me as you have been

I am content in my world

I am living my dream of peace

Do not think otherwise

Do not compare my life to yours

This is what is right for me

Being completely alone

Alone I shall be

Alone I have always been

Being alone really isn't that bad

It is the best I have been

The best I will ever be

I have eased into my solitude

I have accepted it and all its glory

I have found my peace

The darkness no longer scares me

It is of great comfort now

Not being able to see

Feeling numb as I get lost in nothingness

It is quiet here

Just as I like it

I have never once missed the noise of the outside world

No one but me is welcome here

They have all been locked out

That door shall stay locked up tight

I do not need the extra weight

I am enough on my own

It is what's best for me

So here I shall stay

Peacefully alone

In my own solitude

While the world continues to turn

My world will be still

Never changing for there is no need

This world I have created is bliss

It is my harmony

I could never hate this

My solitude world