My Scrambled Thoughts

from the venom

of my pain

you can vaccinate me

change me like

only you can

we can be

together not only

in spite of the

pain but actually

because of it

like my thoughts

and my caution

match your sense of

detachment we can

be infatuated again

surprises aren't pleasant

like when we

were kids you know

but surprise me

change things up

i'm pleased with

what I've seen

happy people living happily

is it real

I don't know

it's so hard

to ascertain what's

fake and what is

reality I've been

around the block

but that doesn't

really change things

because when you go

around you end

up back again

isn't it funny

not like haha

I want to laugh

funny but weird

funny like sad

that happiness is

something that's sought

after by everyone I

know but it

rarely is had

hindsight rewinds time

and there is

no pleasure in seeing

what I could

have done better

and hindsight should

tell us not

to hope but that's

something we never

really stop doing

I think that's weird...

does that make sense?