My Mouthful, Candid Rant

I’m at the stage in my life where I just want to be left alone.

As lonely as I am,

I want to remain in my solitude

until I figure out my purpose.

I have no room in my heart or mind

to open up to someone.

I have no room for people to come in my life temporarily.

I have no more room

for limited relationships, meaningless text messages & FaceTime calls.

I’m searching for inner-peace & my destiny.

I can’t afford to lose myself within someone that only intends to drain me

& use me as an option.

I’m tired of being tired & stagnant.

I just want positive progress mentally,

physically,

emotionally.

I want success,

to be a better me in all aspects of my life.

I’ve been dealing with the same things for years now. I’m evolving

for self-love,

self-assurance, self-awareness & self-patience.

I need to know

if I never find someone to love,

I already have & hold all the love I’ll ever want & need.

Time is ticking.

The older I get the more fragile I’m becoming.

What comes with being fragile?

Gentleness.

I need care, love & affection

I no longer have the energy or mental space for puppy love, long talks that only lead to long goodbyes.

I need a life that’s full of love,

happiness,

joy,

peace,

balance

& weird, fun memories.

I need freedom.

I need a new aroma that’s filled with all the things I am afraid to be.

I need a new atmosphere of acceptance & greetings. I need a new world to come & swallow me whole. So that I can be me & allow myself to be free.

A space filled with stars, fluffy clouds & happy places. A place filled with positive guidance

influencing me to go to the highest dimensions

I am afraid to evolve to.

I need vibey views to enter my life so that I might have peace

& a happy smile with gratitude.

This life has been hell & a half.

One day I’ll sit back & laugh, realizing that where I was, was only taking me to where I am going

My Solitude Defined me.