My Mind Is Made Up

i have decided that a prolific, troubled artist is who i wanna be

fully convinced, all the closure a brother needs

there’s nothing you can do to change me

i don’t care how many shots you throw

too much alcohol can have you poisoned

i don’t care how fake you act

you can never duplicate the original

i don’t care how insecure you are

either deal with it or slap balls

pick yourself up, walk tall

tomorrow ain’t promised for no one

so quit shittin on others and use the toilet next time you gotta defecate

my mind is made up, i don’t need you

who needs affection

not i

i am at peace with my place in the world

i accept my shortcomings

i accept my origins

who needs you

not i

writing showed me the way

you neva did shit for a brother like me

never wanted to accept me for who i was

that’s fine

look at your boy now

he’s shining, he’s gleaming

he’s beaming, he’s the voice of reason

i love it when people ask me who do i think i am

me, hoe

savage writer

that’s who

what else you wanna ask me

i love it when people tell me that “12 pages ain’t a book”

do you really believe that all my books are of that length

nah

even if

it’s about the quality not the quantity

but i forgot you fuckers are too damn simple

to understand the complexities of creation

i don’t understand the intricacies of writing?

bitch, i’m a goddamn prodigy

i know the structures of literature like you know names,

phone numbers, addresses and letters of the alphabet

of course, knock me for using all lowercase letters

slang

not to mention

saying whatever i’m feeling

being raw intentionally for no reason

like i had said

i know the structures of literature but

i’ve decided to not follow the rules

instead

i do whatever the fuck i want to

i been obedient for too long

no more, boi

that’s done

my mind is made up,

i’m embracing my revolutionist

this is who i am now

i don’t care what you think anymore

you don’t agree with me

oh that’s okay

it’s all good in my hood

even though i ain’t been there in a minute

nah, i’m cool

i’ll stay where i reside currently