My Kingdom in Headphones

I'm constantly told to pull myself out of my headphones

That it's the only way to get to know people

To eventually take part in the world

But everytime I do

Whenever I venture outside of the safe borders of my Kingdom of Music

Whenever I try to engage

one of two things happens,

I'll say something stupid

embarrassing myself,

Or I'll be ignored,

Everyone is so comfortable in the groups they already have,

With the people they're already close with,

They don't bother with getting to know me.

One or the other always happens,

ALWAYS

And both result in the same thing,

I retreat back into my safe protected borders,

I return to my fortress,

I will eventually venture out once more,

Only to be driven back again.

So,

Tell me,

What, exactly, is the point of leaving in the first place?

And why do I keep doing it anyway?