My Addiction

What have I let myself becomeI've let my body go numbLooking back I feel so dumb

It all seemed fine at firstJust enough to quench my thirstI must be cursed

Feelings I can't explainAnswers I hope to obtainBut questions still remain

Help me fight this addictionI am a walking contradictionI need more restriction

Never as much as you had beforeUntil you started to have moreNow you're left to settle the score

This has gotten out of handI'm so high I don't understandThis was never what I planned

I'm losing my mindThis world is so unkindI am being left behind

I can never get enoughLife has been so roughI think I need this stuff

It's causing so much painIt's messing with my brainIt's impossible to contain

I am drowning full of emotionsSlowly sinking in the oceansAimlessly losing my devotions

When will it be overI need closureI want to be sober