My Addiction

Dear Addiction, I’m sorry but I must leave you behind. You’re no good for me I feel like I’m dying I feel as though you ripped my heart from my chest and burn me at the stake. I feel as though you hate me and that you never wanted me.

William John Lacoste III you’re no good for me I’m dead at this current moment as you try to. Apologize for the pain that you’ve caused I’m sorry but I can’t take you back you’ve done this it's you’re a mistake. You’ve killed me and I’m done I can’t do this.

As I’ve said before maybe time can heal this but I’m not sure as of this moment I can’t even look at your face. It hurts me to see your eyes the look on your face But I and you can never be more than what we are at this moment. We can talk we can walk but we can never go back to what we were.

We are never going to be the same I have been broken down to nothing I feel like dirt under your feet. Everyone tells me that you are the dirt under my feet, not the other way around. But I still love you and this should not be I should not still love you but how can you not love someone you loved for so long.

But I need to get over my addiction you're like smoking to a smoker. Something so hard to quit something I keep wanting but can’t have something. I’ve lost but learned what to do and don’t want back is that crazy or is that the way this is supposed to feel.

Cutting us to be my only addiction then you came around and missed that all up you changed me in ways I would never have thought possible. I’ve grown up but you’ve changed but you haven’t changed in all the ways I wanted you to but that’s ok. I bet there are things about me that you to hate. Everyone tells me to be done with you and I feel as if I should. But its so hard to leave but I can’t keep being hurt.

I have no heart left it's too broken to repair. I wish things would have been different but they're not and I don’t know where to go from here. Other than to walk away. But like I said earlier I don't want to walk away. But I wouldn’t know how to fix all of this.