Music

I shower listening to music,

I drive listening to music,

I eat listening to music.

Today,

I stopped.

I broke down,

Cried like i had never cried before,

And then took a shower.

I wanted to listen to music,

But i could not bring myself to play it.

Every time i would listen to music,

I would drown in the sounds,

Ignore everyone that talked to me;

What they said,

What i answered,

I could not care less,

Yet I pretended I did.

The music kept playing in my brain;

To the point where I did not notice,

The bad things people said,

Along with those left the good things.

Today I did not shower with music.

I heard my thoughts,

For the first time in as long as I remember,

I cried like I had never cried before;

Yet after that,

I felt clean,

I felt light.

Now,

Instead of listening to music,

I listen to the bad and the worse,

but along with that,

I listen to the good and the better.

Those keep me going.

To this moment,

I still hear my music,

but i turned it down.