I want to take a moment
Stop and focus
On what matters most
And lives move on
But time stopped cold
When I read your name engraved in stone
Finality
The end
La fin
I had to believe it
But I couldn’t resist
Pretending you weren’t gone
And life hadn’t moved on
Without you
After you
That warm summer afternoon
The worst day of my life
Because you were the best part of my life
The reason I existed
But in the blink of an eye
You were gone
And I was missing
You
Missing something in my brain
The reason to breathe
And the reason to stay
Alive
I couldn’t fight
But I couldn’t pretend
And all of these feelings
They felt like the end
La fin
Finality
But my story didn’t follow yours
Like reality
I didn’t succeed
Unlike you
And I wonder sometimes
Was it me
Was it my life
You didn’t like
And I know that’s not true
But it feels like it is
And I can't help but wonder
Why would you leave your kids
We loved you
And I thought you loved us too
But your brain forgot
When you did that
When everything went black
There were not thoughts
Just an escape
Away from your own pain
But what about mine
What about the children you left behind
My thoughts hurt too
But I couldn’t go through
I couldn’t succeed
Unlike you
In reality
But I'm glad
That my plan didn’t work
Because that end
Isn’t going to be my last word
I'm going to struggle
And cry
And probably want to try again in the future
When life gets too hard
And I'm too hurt
But I'll make it through
I can do this
With you
About the Creator
Catherine
I am a 20-year-old college student who deals with depression and anxiety and uses writing and poetry to understand it better. This is my raw feelings put into words, and this is me.
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