Mental Health

Start off calm, collected.

Focus on the money

Focus on the goals.

Then he creeps into my soul, mind.

Just lurking, "going you know you want to

Overthink, doubt your talents."

He just shows up, force his way onto me.

Fuck it now his hands around my neck, strangling the happiness out.

Now I'm anxious and pissed about him.

Mad at him.

Smoking is my sanctuary and can get out of hand.

Balance is hard. I'm trying, being strong alone sucks especially when the one you love doesn't get it.