Melodramatic Mother’s Day

Dear Mom,

Dearest Mother,

Dearer friend,

I thank you for being you, every mother’s day

This year I didn’t want to sugar coat anything

This year is my year of sorry.

I have not been who you believe I can be

I have not been able to withstand things

That would have made you so proud of me

I have not been as selfless as you

I have not loved the way that you do

I am your biggest mess

But, as a gift, know,

You did not create this

You created a girl with dreams

Ones she still believes she’ll one day see

You’ve made life so much easier

Than I can believe

I hear horror stories about other mom’s

And each time I am so glad you’re the one

That made me strong

Not through toxicity or competition for your love

But through patience, understanding, and

Catching me every time I fall

We don’t talk everyday

Or laugh every time we talk

Just know each conversation

Rekindles my thoughts

That you and your children

Will Never Walk Alone

So I’m sorry I have been so prone

To depression and anxieties out of my control

They make me feel like I have no home

And it aggravates me because I know

You’re one goal for me…

Is to be happy…

I can’t say I’m there yet

Haven’t truly been since daddy

But I have my own issues to sort out

And I thank you gladly

For your support with each step

And forgiveness for the

Decisions I’ve made badly

I hope one mother’s day I can give you what you want

I hope one mother’s day we are both where we belong

I hope next mother’s day, you are the same mom

I hope next mother’s day I don’t have to say I love you through the phone

Until then, just know you’re the one that keeps me going

Love your daughter,

In this melodramatic moment