I left the movie tear-filled,
head down, watch your step
breathe in, breathe out
The sticky floor gripped onto my Vans
It’s a ghost town — not a single soul in sight
But someone is watching me
The fluorescent bulbs above sting
my eyes squint, trying to adjust to
the brightness
Everything’s so lit up in here; there’s nowhere to hide
My eyes look red + beaten
The first layer of makeup on my face has been washed away
I feel so vulnerable
Text to Mom:
I couldn’t handle it.
SEND
I left when I saw him hanging from the ceiling fan
Because part of me thinks that could’ve been you;
if things were different
The drinking. The pills. The rehab.
I keep seeing flashbacks in the bathroom mirror.
All of the times we picked you up
because the pills made you limp in your chair
All I could think about was you.
Crying on the subway home might be the most pathetic
People stare + talk to their friends
with looks of pity and confusion
they can all tell, you know
you face away from your best friend
so she doesn’t see the tears
About the Creator
Jeannie McDonald
writer, music lover, makeup enthusiast
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