Love When the Present Lacks

It’s like doubt is stuck in my head

Getting ready to release at any moment

Known? Never, it’s like a surprise

Compromised for the deed signed

In due time I will read the wish

I begged for, that might still persist

Pushed out of the mind

Let me remind you it won’t be the last time

Let what feels compacted flow

All alone life takes a skip

I don’t want to look back thinking of what I missed

I want to gain the power

Being aware making every moment matter

Time will tell, with such knowledge that overwhelms

Even worse than my head bouncing off the shell

I must have a plan to get a start out of hell

What grounded measure backtracks delusion

Containing hallucinations blurred vision was not needed for conclusion

But here I am reaching out my hand preparing for cold stares

Unaware the soul sells from what feeling gustos

Agreements brought to your threshold

What if I chose this life

I wouldn’t want to see through anyone else’s eyes