Love

I don’t know if you noticed or not but I haven’t been especially close you

At least, not in these past few weeks.

I felt the closest I ever been to you yesterday.

I enjoyed the feeling.

I enjoyed being happy.

But somewhere inside I feel the need to be sad.

Because deep down I am still hurting.

I am coming to the realization that for months you didn’t love me the same.

And that’s a hard thing cope with.

I am hurting because our “I love yous” are different.

And I feel like they will always be different.