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Lose/Lose

Written 03/04/2018

By TPublished 6 years ago 1 min read
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I'm confused.

Conflicted and confused.

I shouldn’t be loving you.

But baby do I ever.

I’m trying so hard to hold it back.

I tried to cut it off too.

But I can’t.

I know I don’t have you.

But I’m so f***ing scared of losing you.

Cutting it off or staying with you.

I still lose.

If I stay

I have to live with the fact

that you are not really mine

and I am not really yours.

If I leave

I risk you hating me.

And I’ll have to live with the fact

that you were never really mine

and I was never really yours.

But even if you could be mine.

I wouldn’t want you.

Because I don’t want anyone to want me.

Because I know if they try

they will realize

that I’m not worth it.

I’m not worth loving.

And I could never do that to you.

Because even though I can’t have you

and you can’t have me.

I still love you.

I will always love you.

No matter how hard I try not to.

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T

Just your typical 18 year old living life

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