I'm confused.
Conflicted and confused.
I shouldn’t be loving you.
But baby do I ever.
I’m trying so hard to hold it back.
I tried to cut it off too.
But I can’t.
I know I don’t have you.
But I’m so f***ing scared of losing you.
Cutting it off or staying with you.
I still lose.
If I stay
I have to live with the fact
that you are not really mine
and I am not really yours.
If I leave
I risk you hating me.
And I’ll have to live with the fact
that you were never really mine
and I was never really yours.
But even if you could be mine.
I wouldn’t want you.
Because I don’t want anyone to want me.
Because I know if they try
they will realize
that I’m not worth it.
I’m not worth loving.
And I could never do that to you.
Because even though I can’t have you
and you can’t have me.
I still love you.
I will always love you.
No matter how hard I try not to.
About the Creator
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Just your typical 18 year old living life
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