Looking Back Into Youth
Poems From High School
I wrote these poems back in high school when my tough times first started. It was the first sign of many that I should get help, which I did soon after. Today I am better than I was but I still struggle and I know many other people do too. I thought looking back and posting these for the world to see might help me see how far I've come. It's therapeutic in a way and I hope you all enjoy these poems by young Patrick Lain, back when I wrote under my real name.
The I Am Poem
I am Iain O’Shea
I wonder why my heart's still beating
I hear a voice that takes me down
I see a way through life, and I long to go and find it
I am Iain O'Shea
I pretend to feel happy even though I can’t be
I feel and sad frightened when I’m alone at night
I touch my emotional scars in the dark
I worry about everything besides myself
I cry in the night where no one can hear me
I am Iain O’Shea
I understand I have more to live for
I say I can keep going even though my hope slips away
I dream of a way to get better
I try to comfort others and forget myself
My verse will be: I can’t live for myself until I’ve helped the people I love.
I am Iain Patrick O’Shea
My Mind!
My mind is slowly collapsing around me
The faith I never had keeps slipping away
I drift from my virtues, who should I be?
The darkness sleeps within me I can’t stay
My views on life ruin happiness for all
Everything is fake only an illusion
Real is what we make it what is our call
We are all dreaming lost in confusion
If this is my life I will try to live it
My friends break down with problems uncontrolled
I try and help but I take no credit
I thirst for warmth because I’m cold
My mind is my god and there’s a price to pay
My mind is a god and it's judgment day
Frozen
Frozen
Body, broken
Blood dripping from my arms
Screaming but no one can hear me
Relief…
Figures in the Dark
I lie in the dark
The figures rise as I sleep
Defending myself
As they come and attack me
Real or not they consume me
Everything Inside
I, an empty vessel of my sins
Once an angel good and graceful
But now my wings frail
As I’m doomed to burn in hell
Why should I pray to a God I have disgraced
Why should he help me anyway!
I’m doomed by my actions
Because helping a person angers another
And I witness society running away
Why people like me rot away
Trapped, from an escape
Other people just walk away
As some cry, frail, and wither away
Before our eyes
And we just watch them because
We can’t face the fact
That’s people's light can fade to black
And they die in the night waiting for a reason not to cry
I, once a happy interjected child
Now I just cry and scream without reasoning
I, now a pathetic waste because I can’t face the fact
That my mind is ruined without knowing why
About the Creator
Patrick Lain
A Gothic, horror writer with a taste for the taboo, I also go into other genres but I have found my Niche in horror. Thank you for checking me out!
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