Looking Back

i regret the days

i didn’t want to spend with you

because i was busy

or stress had taken over my body once again

i should have kissed you that night

in front of all our friends

i should have walked up

dropped my things

and kissed you

because that, my dear

was the day i realized i loved you

you would’ve swept me off my feet

kissed me back

the world would have

froze for a moment

it would have been storied

i am so sorry

i didn’t show you off

i should've shouted from the roof

how much i adore you

and i feel remorse that

i broke down when you told me

you wanted to leave

i should have been stronger

because you admire confidence

and i showed you none

but when you explained

how could i not weep

you don’t understand

that you amazed me everyday

when you pulled away

how could i not collapse

you held me up

if i could go back

just for a minute

i would go back to when

you loved me

and i would tell you

how i cannot live without you

because now that you’re gone

i am breathing

yet this body is lifeless.