as a kid i thought the world
was this carnival that had all
your favorite rides and concession stands
with all your favorite candy
all your favorite foods
and all your favorite friends
were there having fun with you
i am nineteen going on twenty
the world wasn’t what i thought it would be
this carnival was a disparate hell on wheels
the carousels were abandoned buildings
the grass turned into crackling concrete
the sky went from blue to grey
the rain was swapped with splotches of human blood
it rained discharge instead
golden showers, golden showers
but, but, but…
i had to let go of this childlike mentality
i once had at the age of seven and toughen myself up
so this world wouldn’t come get me
but i was got anyway
i was got from the day i was born
i never wanted to be born with a development disorder
i never wanted to have my heart stepped on
i never wanted my momma to abuse alcohol
i never wanted my dad to die from an overdose
i never wanted my aunt to die from cirrhosis
i never wanted any of my lovers to cheat on me
i never wanted to become a victim of bullying
i never wanted them delinquents
to jump me by the movie theater
i never wanted a potential price put over my head
i never wanted to become somebody’s target for death
lord, i’m sorry
i know i ain’t pure
i ain’t innocent
i let you down
i let everyone down
i ain’t good
i ain’t good
i ain’t good
i am trash
i am a monster
a menace to society
i ain’t good
i ain’t good
i ain’t good
About the Creator
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