Locked Away

As I sit here

I wonder as to why you don't think

You think,

but you don't think

about what you do,

what you say

and how it makes me feel.

Tonight you're going to your friends

where our type of relationship

has been requested to be kept,

nonexistent.

And tonight,

I know that I will be forced to sleep alone.

You may be on the phone

but that's not enough to keep

The unending thoughts of you,

abandoning me,

at bay.

The aching feeling of being alone

setting in faster then normal,

sending me into a whirlwind

Of self induced demons.

Demons I thought were locked away,

yet when you leave,

when I am truly alone,

They liquefy,

and seep through the cracks,

of my..

unending,

self hatred.