Little Kicks
Trying to Move On (#VocalNPM)
They call me crazy
I truly believed you were my baby
I couldn't have imagine it all
There were so many signs
Deep down I knew it had to be too good to be true
When I found out you weren't real
I turned truly blue
Then to get the news
That ripped my heart out
Especially after feeling those imaginary little kicks
I never knew things to be so hit or miss
To hear those doctors
The words they said stuck in my head
The possibility of loosing you forever
The thought that I may never
Have those little kicks
The pain that came
Was I the only one too blame
Is it fair that it causes me so much shame
I'll never forget
You may not have been there
But the pain was all too real
The tears I cried
I can still feel them slide down my face
I would erase it all if it would help
I hate to say it little one
But I would forget you
If it meant I could move on
But I'm stuck
Never getting past you
Your image lingers in my brain
The heartache I feel
When I still have hope
That some day you'll come to be real
If I could hold you in my arms
If I could truly see those little eyes
Look up at me with the wonders of the world
If I could hold those tiny fingers in my great big hand
If I could give you all the love any one has ever deserved
Then maybe I could smile
Even if just for a little while
Only a wish, a dream, a wild idea
Maybe you just weren't meant to be
I can't keep moving forward
I'm stuck on an endless loop
Just waiting for the pain to fade
I know you'll never be here
You'll always be an image I created
A dream from once upon a time
A fairy tale not meant to be told
A heartache caused simply by my fate
Now I've turned into a being of hate
Not for you or them
But for me, for the mother I wanted to be
I hate the idea
I hate the dream
I hate that deep down some how I still believe.
#VocalNPMAbout the Creator
MorbidlyCuteAriel Lynn
Hey guys, my names Ariel. I'm an aspiring author! Writing is my passion, I hope to someday change the world with my words.
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