Light

It makes me so happy to think my dad would wait til I fell asleep to turn my bedroom light off

Because my dreams

Made me never want to wake up

It makes me less happy to know that I made him do that until I was like

ten years old

And my definition of self contempt goes hand in hand in with my knowledge of happiness.

And the more I experience my happiness

The more it feels like

Our happiness.

And in our dreams we see forever

Clearer than we see diamonds

I grew up sleeping with nostalgia right by my side

To protect me from the monsters and other things that I could only picture in the night.

But now

But now I've forgotten what she even looks like.

The memories I've fallen in love with have begun to haunt me.

Happiness Doesn’t fade

So Please

Don’t fade

I am learning

I am holding on to every one of you

So I don’t have to wake up with the lights on.