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Lifeless

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By Paul CrockerPublished 7 years ago 1 min read
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I don't talk, I won't talk, I can't... talk.

Not to you.

Not now, not ever.

I am invisible forever.

Or am I?

I've discovered that these walls are not all stone.

So I'll punch and claw at it til I'm worn to the bone.

Though I might always be alone.

I know I've got my place that I can call home.

I have my heart, I speak my heart, I keep... my heart.

Because it is mine.

To define the line between wrong and right.

To keep my hope afloat in the depressive night.

To stop at nothing so I can survive the fight.

Then comes the silence of reality.

The defiance of my so called insanity.

Your violence in all of its totality.

Is this normality?

I'll let you call it a game.

I'll let you label me with shame.

Hell, you can even rape me and piss on me in the rain.

But you'll never have my flame.

In the falling water, it steadily remains.

Burning brightly, amongst lifeless bodies, battered.

Illuminating the truth of the blood that you once scattered.

But what does it matter?

They were only queers at the end of the day.

Who's gonna miss a load of gays?

Why should you pay your respects if you have nothing to say?

So I'll pray for the dead and do the same for the living.

Even though some of them don't deserve forgiving.

But this kept heart of mine is overflowing with love.

I don't need any correctional guidance from above.

It is my right to insight that I have had enough.

Cried myself to sleep when I discovered Matthew Shepard's story.

Died inside when the facts of Jamey Rodemeyer's death tore me.

To you it would be tomorrow's chip paper.

An over dramatised caper.

Revenge comes but I escape her.

Believe it or not, despite you wanting me to rot.

I'd forgive everything you've said and done.

Because inside you remains a spark of golden sun.

If you stab the life from my body, I will pull you close when my voice gets weak.

I will whisper that I love you and kiss you on the cheek.

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