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Life Through Poems

Chapter 1

By Anne & AnamesaPublished 6 years ago 3 min read
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I don’t know why

Even the kindest words

Compliments

Endearment

Meaningful

Genuine

words

Sound so empty.

But words of anger

triggered reaction

Ugly words

Insults

Sound so full.

Why is it that the words

Meant to hold no value

Are the ones that stick

But the words full

of likeness and love

Are forgotten

Brushed off

Unbelieved

Brushed off.

~~~

I have always been a soft person.

Kind to everyone, loving.

Never confrontational.

Which is why at that point I knew

That these people have triggered I side of me I have never met

A side of me so angry and hurt

That they would be willing

To physically harm another person.

~~~

People question how I am so

Kind

And how I love

Unconditionally.

But how do you not

Offer your whole heart to the world

When for so long

All you needed

Was for someone to hand you their’s?

~~~

I like to think that I am the type of person

Who always fights for people

For their love

And for a place in their lives.

Perhaps I have fought all the wrong times

And gone exhausted to

The battles

That really mattered.

~~~

“What can you picture yourself doing with your life?”

I don’t know

Because

For so long

I never thought

I would live to the age

Where I had to choose

What to do with my life

~~~

“I need you

because without you i

don’t feel complete

or as happy

your hold melts away my

anger and stress

I need you

Because you are home to me.”

You didn’t need me when you allowed her to

Seduce you

Take over your body

And your mind.

I bet you didn’t even think of me

When you dove in

Between her thighs

My absence did not matter when your

Tongue did circles

Around Hers

My feelings did not matter

When you kept your

Adventures

A secret

Let your mouth and body

Wander

Down roads I never knew of

You did not even

Tell me

Of the new places you had explored

You had no shame in

Bringing your mouth back

Home

To my lips

But how can I call my body

Your home

When it was only ever

A stop

Along the way to

Someone else.

~~~

I fell as quickly as

The petals on a beautiful rose.

And your words prick

As sharply

As the thorns that grew

Down my spine

~~~

I grow exhausted

Of giving people

My everything

And receiving

No appreciation

Or recognition of my value

~~~

Why is it that

The damage

Never seems to go away

Even on bright sunny days

Where life is going my way

Does the darkness still creep in

Somehow

To remind me it is still there

And probably always will be

Writing poetry has always been an outlet for me and a way that I can make sense of my feelings. I hope that I can continue to be brave enough to share more of my poems with the world and that my words may be able to connect with someone one day. For now, I let chapter one give a small insight to personal feelings of mine. Some of these poems were written years ago, and some written within the last few months.

The poems in this chapter chronicle relationships, break ups, depression; normal occurrences in life that can be difficult for anyone to deal with. Being a person who does not like opening up to others or feeling vulnerable, I have turned to writing as my outlet in expressing these hidden feelings and as a way to better understand myself. I found inspiration in poetry books from the time I was young, reading Shel Silverstein poems in elementary school through my adolescence and into young adulthood. Some of my favorite poetry books recently have been Milk and Honey, The Sun and Her Flowers, (both written by Rupi Kaur) and the Whiskey Words and a Shovel series (written by R. H. Shin).

Poetry is known for conveying powerful emotions and delivering impactful messages, hopefully both of which I have accomplished in writing my own.

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Anne & Anamesa

blogger, content creator and mama

find me on socials: @anamesa_anne

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