Life Roulette

No one sees me. I throw up my hood over my head, and turn the world off and my headphones on. I glide through the crowds like a specter on a cold and eerie night. Nameless faces pass by, the drums of death beat on and on in my head. Icy rain pelts us all. The air itself is as cold and stiff as a frozen corpse, and they all rot away. The clock runs forward to 1 am. The other mindless ghosts have left the sidewalks in search of shelter. But I still walk. I'm never sure what it is I am doing. I look for something that cannot be found. I hunt for a beast that cannot be killed, but I refuse to give up. In school they tell us we can do anything, but life says otherwise. Life loves you while you are young. And then, like a manipulative succubus, life throws you down, stomps the air out of your chest and drowns you in the responsibilities and expectations of adulthood. We don't all make it. Many fail. Some don't even try. And then there are the fallen angels who end it themselves. They feel more than the rest. Life has been particularly spiteful towards them. They long for the feeling of bliss and darkness. They long for death, and sometimes, they get it. Whether it's in the bottom of a bottle of whiskey, or a quick bit of lead to the brain. The razors cut deep, the blood runs into the overflowing tub. The rope tightens. We can't handle it. This world is too much, too cruel, too angry and hateful. We are a people divided, and it kills no one but ourselves.