Let Time Go Back

I keep thinking that this is all just a nightmare.

That I'm going to wake up and he'll be back and everything will be fine again.

That our family will be whole again.

Without him there's just a big empty space that only he could fill.

He was the most kindest sweetest gentlest old man you could have ever known.

When will this nightmare end?

When will I finally wake up?

I spent most of my life with him.

He always seemed so cheerful

Always kept busy some way or another.

Whether it was doing dishes, yard work, or just taking care of me and Tony, he always had something to do.

I never saw him not doing anything

Grandpa's always been there for me.

I told him things I don tell most people.

I don't think anyone's gonna take his place.

Please let everything go back to normal.

I don't wanna hurt.

I once told grandpa that I looked up to Tony.

I thought of him more as a brother then a cousin.

I never told grandpa, but I also looked up to him too.

He's been there for me since I was little.

He was there for me when I needed to talk to someone when I was afraid to go to sleep at night.

Now without him I feel lost, helpless, alone, hurt, scared, confused, and left. (deserted?)

It feels like my heart has been taken right out of my chest.

I'm glad he's not in pain anymore and that he's in a better place now, but I still need him.

They say Prayer works.

I prayed for him to get better and be his old self again, but that never happened.

After he left I prayed for God to give him back and he didn't.

God took a great Grandfather from us.

Couldn't He have waited a little longer?