Let Him Go

I prayed that I would forget.

Now that I am forgetting, I just don't want to forget.

I don't want to forget the color of your eyes or your laugh, or the way you smell.

I think I would just pray that I could forget the pain. That I could have the memories without the sadness of missing you in those memories.

I just need to see you. I need to see your face. See the good and brave and strong soul that I know is in there.

How long are you going to make me wait, oh lord? How long are y'all going to make me wait.

I go day by day just trying to move forward,

but I can't help but scream your name.

That the further I move forward and let go,

the more my heart cries for him to move forward with me

even if it's not together.

Lord, I am trying to let him go.