Let Go

Recently... I had my heart broken... my heart is actually still incredibly broken...

This one seemed different

That’s why I fell so quickly

Now I did make my mistake too... but I owned up to it I apologized for it

My only mistake though was what they said was “assuming they wanted nothing to do with me anymore” and alright I admit I did assume... but I only assumed because the energy didn’t feel right

I could’ve handled the situation better

But then I look back on it and think “they could’ve reassured me that that wasn’t the case too but they didn’t... they let it go like I meant nothing... like I was nothing”

Fast forward to March 16th

A party

One I was invited too... one WE were both gonna be at

I thought to myself “the perfect time to talk about it...”

Bought a brand new outfit

Got dolled up

“Everything is gonna be fine... once y’all make eye contact... it’s all gonna be fine”

Wrong

As soon as I walk in... there are other females around

Touchy feely

And it was being allowed

I confronted

They brushed it off

I tried

I held close

They pulled away

They gave up

I cried for hours

No words being said to each other for weeks

Fast forward to April 6th

My birthday party

They showed up

I got incredibly messed up but I remember everything... shocking I know

I fainted outside... they carried me to the room

I got up and I let those deadly 3 words out

“I love you”

They left

The next day... I asked why they left

“You weren’t the reason” they told me

I felt a little better

“Did you mean it? Do you remember?”

“I remember and yes I meant it”

Nothing changed

I don’t mean a thing to them

And I’m trying to accept that

But it’s hard when you feel like it’s still not over

You can feel their attachment still

You can feel them still thinking about you as much as you are them

They stay connected to you

But please for your own sanity... let them go

Block them out

You’re only hurting yourself

They don’t care

They aren’t coming back

They let go a long time ago

They’re not crying over you

They’re not sad over you

If you meant something to them... they would make it known

Put yourself first

Stop hating yourself

Don’t feel like you aren’t good enough

You ARE