He's been my friend for so long
I forget other people don't like him
And that when they get to know me
They scowl in spite of him
But he caresses me and holds me
With the tightest grip
No one else holds me like this
The world isn't kind
Humans are conniving fiends and he makes me realize this
While suppressing any genuine feelings
I don't want to live like this
But the universe has deceived me
into thinking there are brighter days
I guess I'll keep dreaming
That's the only way I get through each minute
Thinking of the possibility that I could have it
Happiness,
pure bliss,
without being a savage
Why does it have to be so hard to grab it
He explains to me it's all in your mind
You have to flip the switch that's out of reach to see life as Devine
But he asks
"Is that really what you want to do with your time
Pretend these lies you tell yourself are the way out of your shattered mental health
That the good things will stay,
that I won't come back to play
That's not how this works
You're stuck with me
I hope it hurts"
He pulls me in a little tighter
Then too tight
Oh my god
Should I fight him?
He is my home
The only one I truly know
I don't want to upset him
Don't want to put on a show
Hold is too tight now
I'm having trouble breathing
I try to slip away
But before I can he's leaving
I grab his arm
Pull him back
I'm awestruck and bleeding
But I already started grieving
Why can't I let go of these demons
Why is their hold more comforting than my achievements
Why can't I be happy and believe it
The distress is killing me but he keeps on making me see no reason
For life,
for struggle,
even for breathing
That has stopped now
My heart is no longer beating
He crushed my lungs with my soul
I enjoy the freedom
But he follows me in to the dark
Goodbye my legions
Keep fighting
Even though I couldn't beat him
Maybe in my next life
I won't even meet him
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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