Leave It

So sly the darkness slithers between the cracks of your rotting mind! Filthy guttural screams echo behind your eyes, as your thoughts struggle to escape from your purple swollen tongue...

Sweating out your fears, like a drug they stole your mind, hoping no trace of you to find.You squirm and writhe beneath the pressure of your lies, lies to hide who you really are behind those sparkling eyes.

You try to seduce me with that whorish come hither look, but you wreak, you smell from all the places you have been, covered all over like a second skin, so blossom your heart of adulterous sin

You use to call me worthy, CURSE YOU! I SAY!

You were never worthy of my love, twisting and thrashing my soul upon its grave, you tried to steal away my life you tried to make the piper pay, but I pay no one, I say! No one! Especially an ego like you, so sure you've got me played...

But look now, who's lying in their grave. Shallow. Just like you. I leave you for the wolves like you left me for the bears, you self destructive, no good shadow dancing between the worlds, I cast you beyond the deep to get swallowed up by endless sleep

I no longer hide behind this Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde, I feel my bones, their changing, writhing beneath my skin. like a million maggots, in my blood they swim. This is the beauty of unrepented sin!

Hear me, Oh HEAR ME, you wretched old SELF Pawing and scratching, just wanting to be held I know you fear love, for than you must feel the deepest of your pains bubble to the surface of your self righteous face

Love isn't easy, Ego...

I know you watch from inside this fleshy cave Just wanting to avoid all the pain, hide behind shadows of unrelenting shame so you can displace all your self loathing blame as you slowly slip into the insane vainly screaming your masters name

You slip into darkness, down, down you go deeper and deeper into the shadows until you have nothing left to show. One day you will find that this is what you need to understand the love that brought me to my knees. I can't say I miss you... but things just aren't the same. Without a little Ego I could not create.

So here I battle a war Ill never win while Im trapped inside a world of infinite sin. Should I slip away with my ego, should I plunge into the sea and let the all consuming darkness swallow me... Yes, fade, like the color in the leaves until I'm a whisp of harmonious grief

Crumble in the wind, scattered beyond the rocks that fight against the waves to hold back the oceans anger, to fight against my rage. For when I was broken it never went away only to infused into the elements I became searching for a new name.