Lead by Example

I remember so vividly when he turned away and walked away with the wind, I felt heartbroken. I know you can't actually feel heartbroken but have you ever been so sad that your chest physically starts to hurt? You can feel yourself trying to hold back tears but eventually they just start rolling down your cheek like the water after the wave crashes onto the rocks. Am I supposed to just roll back into feeling fine again? Just like I never crashed? I always think back to his red shirt, as he continued to walk down the path, Little did he know that as he was walking out of my sight, he was also walking out of my life forever.

As I sat there I felt like I was drowning, I could taste the salt from my tears on my lips like I was slowly sinking into the blue of the ocean. My mind was on repeat, replaying the words that broke my heart over and over again. It's like I was trying to re word what he said to feel better but the emptiness in my stomach could not have been stopped. So I sat there, just staring at the ocean view as my mind went in and out of flashbacks.

In the distance now are trees swaying back and forth like they're dancing with the wind, hand and in hand. I remember when him and I danced on top of my building with the stars shining down on us like they were lighting up a stage for the heavens, a performance for the gods. The feeling he gave me when I first saw him was kind of like the feeling I had as he walked away from me, breathless.

Young love is pointless, they say, because we are too young to know what love is but I don't think age defines how you can feel about someone because I knew what love was. Love is when you would do whatever in the world for someone even if it kills you, and love is when you are laughing with someone and half way through you stop and think about how lucky you are to be witnessing such a beautiful sight, Love is when you accept someone's past because you want them in your future and Love is knowing that you will always be there for them.

As I sit here now on the same bench, still watching the waves crash onto the rocks, unfortunately the world cannot stop just so that you have time to put yourself back together. I left that bench and never looked back because I lead by example.