Laundry

I'm high off life but drunk off the feel,

It's like I'm numb in the inside and I can't continue,

To live life and try something new,

It's the toxic and vulnerable cologne of yours,

How I speak so highly of you but you jeer when I talk to you,

It's so confusing when you keep calling me your wifey tho,

Overwhelming just to think that you're with someone you cheated on,

How I was the chick you kept cheating on her with,

You kept telling me "you loved me" and how "we're on different things,"

How she was "crazy" and you couldn't deal with it again,

On March 31st you were laying on my bed and you said, "You're my wife for the day,"

"We can have kids when we're around 25", "I'd be 23," I said,

"We're alike in so many ways, how are we not compatible?" I questioned,

You responded "I have to explain everything I tell you,"

"I don't go to college, sorry that my native language is Spanish,"

You said you understood that and that it's not my fault,

How I'm like your baby & you always want to take care of me,

"It's not the right time," don't wait too late I'm not going to stay here for too long,

So I believed that was a reason for you to keep entertaining me,

How foolish of me! Excuse me for believing that someone actually loved me,

The next day I saw you putting gas in her car and so I yelled "HI D_ _ _ _ _ _ !",

Bet she didn't hear me from the driver's seat of her car. I mean, does she know?

How you were just in my bed the day before talking about "you're my wife!"

How you kept seeing and doing things with both of us? Who knows even more,

But this ain't about your dirty laundry so I'm going to keep it classy,

This is more about the effect that you caused from lying again and again,

How you're unhealthy to me, But deep down in my heart it craves for you,

I can tell I'm stuck in quicksand, How I'm deep in it but I cant seem to find a way out,

Your so called "friends" keep an interest in me,

You said "they know better than to lose someone like me, a friend like me,"

But boy, only if you knew how many and who are interested in me,

If only you knew who would put a ring on this,

They don't care for you, they care to make me theirs and their number one priority,

That will be your biggest regret, losing me,

You haven't seen me loving another or with another man yet,

But the best is yet to come & fix my fragile heart that you more than once broke.