Late Nights

Late Nights: Me

I feel like this pain is alienating me.

It's become so bold it's debilitating me.

It's my own fault for it contaminating me.

Because right now, it's communicating with me.

It breathes my blood. It's intoxicating me.

It's me against me. It's intimidating me.

Me and me aren't cooperating with me.

This pain is so deep. It's excruciating to me.

It's so familiar. It's use to accommodating me.

I can't get away. It stays anticipating me.

It knows every move. It's investigating me.

Like constant coffee there's no decaffeinating me.

There's really no point in evaluating me.

It's obviously showing. It's obliterating me.

Yet it's me...I need to stop participating... with me.

Late Nights: Unplugged

I feel the disconnection as it's all slowly unraveling.

I know what my heart desires yet my soul keeps traveling.

I hear a power speak yet I chose to only hear babbling.

I'm at war with myself and I keep fighting and battling.

The emotions are fading back and it's all just vanishing.

It's all becoming quite numb yet it's still solidly maddening.

I'm compromising myself and every thought is cancelling.

I know I have to gain control. I've been here, it's damaging.

I'm in search to find a way to breathe through the right channeling.

Every direction is a life changing game of gambling.

Late Nights: 01/28/2018

Tonight I lost myself so insanely shamefully, accidentally.

I let my logic slide and my hands followed coincidentally.

There's something I've been missing that's supposed to be there fundamentally.

I've just used other things to cure it and used those in place supplementally.

I just want to be someone who matters and do something monumentally.

I don't just want to exist and so happen to thrive here incidentally.

I'm trying to set my mind right because I don't give in environmentally.

Success and failure is just something I'm learning right now experimentally.