They call me a prude or a buzzkill.
They say I don’t know how to have any fun,
But the truth is, I know too well.
I’ve seen ‘just one’
Turn into ‘just one more’
I’ve watched wanting
Become needing.
And once a week
Turn into two, three, four times a day.
I’ve seen paychecks disappear
And food intake dwindle.
Something has to go
When bliss is so expensive.
I’ve listened through that wall:
The pleading more frantic,
Your next fix
Just not coming fast enough.
I’ve seen them come looking,
When you bit off more than you could afford.
You told everyone you were mugged
But you had nothing for anyone to take.
I’ve walked by that door,
Stared at your empty bed,
Wished and prayed
You’d just come back.
I’ve heard mom’s tears,
Watched dad deny, deny, deny,
Pushing more and more evidence
Under that rug.
I felt the stab of another birthday missed,
The sting of your absence on Christmas.
I was there when you robbed
Your own home on Thanksgiving.
And then I witnessed your return,
The rug too small to hide
What everyone could plainly see.
A stranger to those who love you.
You’re skin pale, face tight,
Clothes hanging loosely off your tired bones.
I witnessed the comeback;
Slow, painful, more downs than ups.
Waited for you to run,
The familiar glint, that dreaded twitch.
And then I watched you stay.
I witnessed one good day
Turn into two, then three.
I saw the needing
Become wanting
Become... nothing.
So no, I can’t loosen up
For ‘just one night’
Because I’ve seen what happens
When that night never ends.
About the Creator
Pen Princess
I am 23 and just exploring what the world has to offer. I write as I go, so hopefully, someone wants to hear about my discoveries.
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