I did not get to be mad
well,
I got to be mad, but just for just a moment
a moment when the world’s rotation took a break
and avoiding your gaze
I watched the wind devotedly hold onto the trees
the way I thought you held me
and I witnessed the world
that I saw through rose-colored glasses
shift
pulse
and finally crumble before me
shaping into a familiar,
yet long-forgotten,
vastness of nothing but gray
and I felt the lump in my throat grow
suffocating me,
then the lump became a blade
shredding me,
tearing me open mouth-to-gut;
every sense of stability
falling out with my insides
at your feet—
but you looked away
occupying yourself with the grass
as I shattered in front of you
every piece you ripped up
was the popping of the seams
that I had to stitch
my heart together with
holding back vomit
I think to myself
it was my fault I guess
for letting myself feel secure
as my clothes fell to the floor before you
like they fell before him,
and her,
and them,
and him again
but the moment passed
with a quivering inhale
followed by an eventual exhale
I quickly put myself back together,
gluing the pieces
of my broken reality into place
sewing up my skin where
your transgressions had torn
and I kissed the lips
that you willingly brought to hers,
looking into the eyes
that explored her physique,
and forgave the mind
that had once given me hope
that I was good enough not to destroy
but now that saw me as not permanent—
not her
“t’s okay” I mutter
but it isn't
About the Creator
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