It's Nothing

I hate when you say that something you said doesn't matter anymore.

Just because our call failed, or the phone cut out,

It does matter.

You asked me a question,

Or made a statement that deserves a response,

but you say, it doesn't matter.

I know I do this too,

yet you always get me to tell you anyways.

And yet you don't understand that

I

don't have the mental strength to bug you about it.

I don't want to upset you,

I don't want you to get angry,

and I definitely don't want or need you to yell.

I've had enough of being yelled at.

Enough to last several lifetimes,

So when I ask you what you said

it's not always because I wasn't paying attention

Or because I was "ignoring you".

I don't ignore you.

I know how it feels to be ignored and I hate it

and I wouldn't wish that feeling on my worst enemy.

I want to have a conversation, I promise.

But sometimes I space out.

I get lost in thought and then,

I miss what you're saying,

You say never mind,

Don't worry about it,

It's nothing...

It's not nothing, you're talking to me

And I've been through more then I'd care to explain

And I'm-

I'm sorry

I won't explain, and you don't need to know...

So,

Please,

Next time,

Just say it...

One last time...

So I don't feel like I'm letting you down

because that's how it feels

When you say,

Never mind,

Don't worry about it,

It's nothing...