Is It Lost

I lost what I never had,

No point in being sad,

The distance between us has grown,

No matter where in the world we’ve flown,

My heart grabbed on way to fast,

After vacation, space grew vast,

I felt her pulling away so far,

Were the feelings ever real or mar,

I cry inside at what I miss,

Being a part of her life was such a bliss,

I don't think it will ever be the same,

And only I am the one to blame,

Reality is that we are only friends,

Rules are stuck forward with no bends,

The key to the heart is lost once more,

Buried away, sealed, will no longer soar,

My feet on the ground, heart on myself,

I will concentrate on building and securing my wealth,

Life is long, difficult and with trials to bear,

I will focus on today alone with no despair.

I loved my feeling of being alive once erased,

Where my soul and heart were dragged around and disgraced,

But when I was a zombie who slept,

I rarely felt the sadness and wept,

Love is sad and sometimes has no reward,

Like a fairy tale story, with no prince and sword,

These are just words of thought,

No truth inside, just to be heard or bought.

I learned to love myself well,

I look back at when it all fell,

Two worlds so different, we are set apart,

Distances great even from the very start.