I’m Not Lonely

I’m not lonely

But I feel so afraid of everyone around me.

I have a family, friends, ‘love,’ a roof over my head

And yet I feel so hallow inside

I say that I am afraid of the people around me

Is it them, or is it me?

I feel pain

And I think that this is the most real thing that I know

I feel sadness, depression, and a lot of emptiness

But I heard that the only cure for that was myself.

How long until I let myself heal? How long until I feel like I can heal?