If I tell you the truth
of the feathers in my soul, the roots
coiling down through my legs
like spider veins, invisible,
latching beneath the soil;
If I tell you the truth
of the ache in my bones,
beyond my bones,
in the monastery of old growth
trees, silent and steadfast
as monks beneath a vow,
that spark of recognition of my self
as something more than human;
If I tell you the truth
of my conversations with the moon,
the frogs, the maples lining the street,
the robins skimming the grass as though
they walked on water,
the squirrels digging in the woods;
If I tell you the truth,
how I bawled hunched over
cupping a dead towhee in my hands
as if a star had fallen from my sky;
If I tell you the truth,
how often I feel I am merely straddling
my human skin and otherness,
never belonging anywhere,
how often I wish my native tongue
was something more tactile,
more guttural, more dimensional
than these spoken words;
Would you simply nod your head and
smile politely, as if I were a child
or a lunatic or an unintelligible creature—
which perhaps would be an affirmation
of my secret longing—
or would you sit in the stunned silence
of what cannot be spoken, only felt,
to also be true of you?
About the Creator
Amber Cadenas
Writing is my preferred art form, offering me a space where I can weave together my loves of Earth + wildlife + yoga + storytelling.
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