I Want to Feel
I never really loved you.
it's like you took away the part of me that I loved the most
the part of me that felt so much
the part of me that had so much to give
I started to believe you
started to believe that I was too much
I started to change for you
I became numb
I put out my fire
hid my burning passions in a closet for no one to see
you think you had me
but all you had was just a shielded version of me
a girl that was not real
a girl created by who she used to be
just trying to get you to love her
she just wanted to feel
that girl is now me
and I'm fighting back with all I have
I'm digging that passion out from the closet
dusting it off and looking for matches
because now I know I have to be me
and if who I was when I was with you
was a girl I never really knew
the whole story makes sense now:
I never really loved you
the whole damn time all I felt
was utter turmoil in my veins
like my heart was trying so hard
to tell me something I couldn't see
but I didn't listen
I got lost in the game
that's what I was to you, right?
you knew if you tried you could win
but I could see your poker face
right there in plain sight
I look back on us and I feel nothing
all you are is a stranger to me
who I don't really care to know
all I want now is to feel again
it's like all my emotions are buried in snow
some spring day i'll start to feel
with someone who sees
my madness as a wildflower
and my heart as a honeybee
fueling my fire
to ignite all our dreams
like you never did for me
About the Creator
Nicole Delmonico
just a girl with a lot of feelings
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