I want to die but I don't.
I'll be driving in my car and I'll want to crash and go.
I press on the gas and start to turn my wheel so fast.
Then I think about the trees and how I love the snow.
And I turn the wheel back slow and decide to make it last.
I want to die but I don't.
In the shower when I'm crying I grab the razor and I wish,
I could slide it up my arm and see the blood fall from my wrist.
Then I think of my family and all of the people I would miss.
I want to die but I don't.
Sometimes before I go to sleep I pray I won't wake up
maybe I could take some pills to speed the process up.
Then I think about you and all of the things that I love.
I want to die but I don't,
I just want to end the pain that keeps taking up my mind,
killing me anyway.
I want to die but I don't because I think about it all
and how much it would hurt them once they got the call.
How it would break your hearts and how life is sometimes great.
How I don't want to be apart of all the new days.
I want to die but I don't.
I know I need to live,
I have too much in my heart
I have more love to give.
About the Creator
eyak girl
I like to write poetry and short stories about life and love.
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