I Still Loved You

With every wake, tears would stream down my face

In fear of another day of heartache from you.

Who would it be this time? An ex? An old friend? A random girl you just met?

With every other girl that came and left, I still loved you.

Your depression and anger would take over, making you thirst for a release.

Hate, insults, blame, all thrown my direction just for existing.

What happened? What did I do? Why are you yelling at me? I would never know the answer.

With every hate-filled word, every twisted comment, I still loved you.

Every gaze you gave to other girls, every piercing word that came from your lips, I still managed to love you.

Because when I first saw you, I saw a man so sweet.

A man who made me feel like he'd never hurt me, like my heart was safe in his hands.

A man who could be my forever.

Maybe that's why I stayed for so long.

I was waiting for that man to come back, to wrap his arms around me and take away all the pain that you handed to me.

I was waiting for a man to come back that you killed long ago.